u and i will be together in a far away dreamZ

2009-06-20T11:40:00.001-07:00

i'm shifting!

http://gman-guang.blogspot.com/

2009-06-18T10:34:00.000-07:00

alrite,
finally i'm done with the PC SHOW 09 at suntec.
sales was MUCH better den last year's one at expo.
but still...
somehow i dont feel satisfied.

i was utterly disgusted by

yes SINGAPOREANS
unsatisfiable appetite for free stuff, cheap thrills
and kiasu-ism in a SALE
especially at the expense of others.

i met this middle age couple that wanted to buy desktop
which was selling at 599.
i understand that people that came to the pc show wants
somemore free stuff on top of what they actually pay for.
the lady went,
"ok i'm just gonna check out acer and compaq"
(i sell compaq)
"you go ask ur boss if you can gimme this things i want
i'll buy from you"
so she lists what she wants.
ram upgrade,
monitor size upgrade frm 18.5'' to 20''
extension for more usb ports
the thing for wireless for desktop
wireless keyboard and mouse
not enuf??
AND SHE STILL FUCKING WANTS A 50DOLLARS REDUCTION IN PRICE!!!

greed is ugly, and so are the both of you.
if you can get all the fucking shit you want
free of charge,
den you can call be shit.
fucker!

for 599 you want all these.
and to add oil to fire,
they want to pay by credit card.

ok for those that have no idea,
payment by credit card, nets inclusive,
DO have a difference to how much free stuff you can get cos of the charges involved.

initially i was patiently explaining to them about
what they can get and what is impossible,
and they just keep on saying that we can accept their demands.

oh wow,
you all must listen to the best part,
i did my best and
ask them kindly if
they wanna top up money for the things that is possible for them
like the upgrade of the monitor size.
you know what they say???

"why dont you dont take commission for our case lar?
so can top up of us"

oh hell yea,
sure,
for 599 i only get a 6 dollar comission,
my 6 dollars can get u alot of things
just like ur 599 hur.

if not for my incharge being nice to me,
i wud have not bother to go attend to them anymore,
fucking ridiculous
yes i have a good temper,
but that day
i was so tempted to go tell the couple
why dont you go fuck ur own mom and tell her
that you want another little brother or sister??
mother fucking shitheads.

on many occasions
i'm proud of being a singaporean.
but you disgust me.
fuckhead.

oh yeah
ytd nic,nel,darren and ruirong
we went to sunset grill&pub
at 140-b picadilly road, seletar airbase
to tackle the level 30
super duper spicy chix wing!
super duper is an understatement mind you!!

so proud of the cert showin that i've conquered it!!
hahahahaha
we must be mad.
and i had runs for the entire night.

today's soccer was nice!
soooooooooooo
many pple turned up!!
haha
but too many not very nice also,
crowded sial.

to those 1st aug goin
attendance pls confirm!!

when you are too free,
you tend to think hell lots.
omfg,

i need to occupy myself sia!
who has ideas that aint stressful on the pockets?

2009-06-09T11:20:00.000-07:00

from thurs till sunday
i wont be online.
its the it fair again!!
time to earn some money!!
moolah!

pls come buy frm me.
i need to sustain myself.

oh wells i need more jobs.
bumming my ass ard was a good idea.
but
it sucks to stay at home for so long.

exercise still eludes me
and ICT is creeping near.

the bros
i've got a surprise for you!!

imagine my sian-ness when
chu told me that econs girl is attached.
haha nah expected it.
whoo my eyecandy is attached.

gossips.
love it.
yea i'm bitchy.

on my way home from vivo today
in my sis's car.
the DJ on class 95 said.
jealousy is a natural part of everyone.
a lil jealousy abt the ones you love is normal.
too much destroys things.

how true hur?

i watched this tvb show on cable.

the guy said.
i disagree with the saying
"you reap what you sow"

and i totally agree with him.

1stly, this world is unfair.
no amount of hard work will get you
to the level of pure genius and talents.
newton was great.
Einstein was the god.
a hardworking office guy
will never overtake the prime minister's son.

the poor beggar will always have to beg
tell him to obtained qualifications for a better life
he'll say gimme money 1st.

2ndly.
if we ignore the above.
our mindset was to reap what we sow.
so the entire time was to think
when am i reaping what i've sowed.
they say if you waited long enough it will come.
but when is long enough for you?
you studied diligently,
on the day of the exams you had a fever and barely pass the exams
thats not reaping what you've sowed.

you work diligently for your boss for years,
a new young guy comes into the company and becomes your manager
because he's more qualified.
worst, your boss fires you and hires a younger and cheaper worker.

i think we shld just sow.
thinking about reaping undermines everything and everyone.

but then again.
we live in a practical world.
everyone is selfish.

2009-05-31T23:03:00.000-07:00

李玖哲
想太多

你笑着说
他是朋友
但你眼中太温柔
我的不安
那么沉重
只有你不懂
他霸占了你的心中
属于我的角落
所以你说
我们不是你和我
是我想太多
你总这样说但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由oh...
他霸占了你的心中属于我的角落
所以你说我们不是你和我
是我想太多你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由
我想我没有错怪了什么
虽然你不说或许错在我
太晚我才懂爱了你太多oh...
是我想太多你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由

heard this song on tv.
take a good read at it and
u'll understand the meaning.
lovely song.

its only two weeks after our exams
and it feels like very long.
i've got 3.5 months more to endure!!

pple.
pls plan stuff thats low on cost

now that everyone's having holidays.
we can haf soccer sessions other den saturday.

all major soccer leagues have ended their season.
this means that we dont have to stick our faces to the
television anymore.

i hate my legs.
why do they keep getting injuried.
probably the owner is a fucked up asshole that doesnt take care of them.

haha anyway.
i really want to go and run
and run
and run
and run
and run.

i think its time to bring back the endurance
back in army.
run through the pain barrier.

2009-05-24T10:33:00.000-07:00

alrite.
exams has ended for abt 2 weeks.

i dont have to wake up in sweat everyday anymore.

so came the after exams party

mahjong
dota
soccer
movie
badminton
sister island camping
more soccer
more dota
more movies
gossips
laughter
suppers

i shld be working at the it fair.

i need more jobs
JOBSS
JOBSS
where art thou?

mousehunting on facebook

newcastle is relegated.
pls come back nxt nxt season.
pls keep shearer too.

2009-05-17T02:28:00.000-07:00

YAY
finally exams are over!!
after weeks of madness.
sleepless nights and nightmares.

now i am so free.
i shld go borrow a book to read.
find a job.

dota on sat.
hahahaha
was completely lost.
but luckily last game i remembered wat items to buy
hahaha good fight bros.

sister island camping soon.
i think the cost is madness.
but shld be worth it cos of the company.

after that,
i'll prolly survive on cup noodles everyday.
pls sponsor me.

i wanna meet up wif a lot of pple.

cant wait.

hahaha

i am soooooo freeee

2009-05-08T10:40:00.000-07:00

two papers down.
three more to go.

it feels like the anticipation of going to ord again.
the liberation will be
of much comfort.
no more studying overnite at macs
no more studying till 4, 5 am at home.
no more
no more for at least till nxt sem.

i need entertainment.
i need exercise.
and to everyone
yes i know i put on weight.
you dont have to rub it in.

and i think nellie is gonna comment on me being fat again.
=)

anyone know the WAY TO THE TOP??

when you find a way to the top.
"is it too absurd?"
"can you do it?"
"is that possible?"

none of that matters.
all you need to do is to CLIMB!!

if you lack the talent,
then ask for help from others without shame.
dirty your own hands
even if you have to bear the contempt
of the ones you love.
in order to get to the top
in order to quench this thirst
thats burning in every man
getting to the top!!

haha
ok
its time for a joke.

my econs lecturer says,
we shld all aim for high marks.
den he relates it to the analogy

in order to get a man's heart,
first fill his stomach.
this is in sync with

when you aim high you'll always end up somewhere lower.

so imagine where all the girls n wives land??

hahaa

2009-05-02T03:35:00.000-07:00

5 more days to paper number 1
FIVE MORE DAYSSS!!

i tell you.
living in seclusion to study
or at least try to study for the exams
is bad for health,
life,
temper
and everything..

suddenly i feel so loner.
haha.
call me to chat pls.

swine flu.
means no pork??!?
den what will happen to my bak kwa????
noo!

suddenly
pple tell me that i look fat.
bings said my face is rounder.
i swear i will go on a diet
and exercise regime after the 15th.

vans! jo! wanyi! lena!
no more food!!
jio me to exercise.

i got damn bored.
i checked out www.astrology.com.au
haha read your daily horoscope.

i've been doing studying till the 1st bus at serangoon macs
with darren
nic
thou regi stayed till 3plus.
rr left at 11plus.
i need more MORE of that.
pls drop by to say hi!

the tot of travelling to expo is shit.
god pls lemme find a gf who drives me ard.
hahaha!!
see!
too long in seclusion drives you crazy!!!

now i am in withdrawal sydrome.
today is sat.
BUT no soccer =((

i nd soccer.
i nd movie.
i nd mahjong.
i nd exercise.
more imptly
i nd to study!!!!!

get lost gman.

2009-04-21T11:33:00.000-07:00

i'm on a disappearing mission.
sorry to all that i've neglected.

one more month
and i'm free!!

now i am:
fat
unhealthy
unkept hair
unhappy
unproductive
unrich

now i am in need of:

going out
play
mahjong
alcohol
breathing fresh air
money
girls
girl
more good food
exercise
rest
more time
more discipline
money
money
money
money

now i need the company of:
family
my beloved momo
nel
nic
darren
vans
lenas
jo
wanyi
bings
yuns(?)
kaixiang
weimeng
leooo
zz
rp
joel my gay bud
ss
chinhao
chunsiong
soccer peeps
st gabs guys
cjc peeps
sim peeps

now i desire:

a fitter bod
arsenal to win liverpool tonight
48hours a day
to undesire for more food
money
more money

now my random tots:

you are like a rose
with thorns of cos.
But i wont let the thorns
undermine your beauty
in my eyes.

i'm here to tell a story.
a short one thou.
some of you may know who's felix.
sometimes u cant help but just feel jealous.
felix's gal now.
aka "ai xin bing gan"
they knew in sec sch times.
she baked him biscuits back den hence the nickname.
nope i do not know her personally.
but back then they did not last.
years later
after changing gfs and maybe bfs
into the uni they went.
and fate brought them togets again.
the way i see it i know that they are
happily togets.
'cos i knew the story frm the start.
frm "ai xin bing gan"
den to galvin telling me that
felix n her got together now.

you cant help but also feel happy for your friend.
anyway shes alot prettier now too.

yup thats the story today.

fate is such a bitch.

2009-04-09T03:21:00.000-07:00

econs rev was alrite all the way till
minutes before the end.
i got owned by the maths in econs.

pls dont let me be sick.
not at this time.

you locked urself out.
fuck off.

pressure is pilling.
temper is bad.
tread with care.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qEHS6GhJk2M&feature=related

laughs!!

2009-03-19T12:01:00.000-07:00

alrite.
time now is 310 am. 20th march 2009.
my boredom has just reached new peak.
so i decided to come to pay a lil visit to this
which i-dunno-still-got-who-read blog
those who read tag.
i will do an appreciation entry the nxt time!
haha.
so with boredom to fuel my extra energy now at this time in the morning...
i will do blogging.
so peeps
"this is not not not not not an emo post"
emo puts you in depression
and the other fella has absolutely no idea and is enjoying with their own lives.
so no point to emo.
haha yup
that my stand.

i was doing some pbf reading and listening to yes933.
the caller supposed to talk abt their 1st love or something like that.
so this girl called in.
she told her story.

shes been with the guy for two and a half years,
but two years ago.
one day she went down to his office to look for him.
then there was this girl that works with this guy,
she went to badmouth the girl to her bf.
the guy believed and in a moment of anger,
he threw their ring down from the 5th floor.

so that how her 1st love ended.
at this point, the dj was trying to like ask her if she still feels for the guy
or she got pissed at him and got over him.

the girl stutter abit
den she said.

"after both of us went around in circles
we got back together."

and so the conversation continues
the dj ask how did they get back together and all..
then there came a point,
the girl said the guy waited for her for a year.

haha
i could help but smile to myself.
haha some successive case of waiting!

oh wells they are not the 1st i've heard.
my cjc classmate eric and her gf jessie
they also went round in circles be4 getting together.
thats nice.

but oh well
life isnt always a bed of roses,
there thorns too.
theres always the unsuccessful cases.
(haha nope am not emoing!)

last time i had alot alot of thoughts.
mostly stupid.
last time i do not believe that fate is fixed by the almighty.
last time i detested the saying "what is yours is yours."
last time i loath the words "bo bian"/no choice if u dont understand.
last time i do not believed that "if you really love her let her go and grab her happiness"

now?
people do grow up,
matured a not i have no idea.
that is not up to me to judge.
but now?
i still believe i can shape my own life.
i grew tired.
saw the light,
lost the fight.
(heh rythm sia!!)

my perspective changed.
i'm no longer running around in the circle
while the girl and the world rotates
without me.

now i'm just tryin to
love myself more,
love my frens more.
oh yea not to mention,
working my ass to get a qualification.

point of all these?
i really felt happy for that couple.
felt happy for the guy.
to wait for someone aint a lovely,
simple thing to do.
he waited and he got what he waited for.
i can feel the smile on his face.
haha
cant you see i'm sooo happy for them??
i'm no sour grape,
i'm no jealous pot too.
whenever i hear such things,
i like to share their euphoria.
=D

alrite so much for sharing.

taking a leaf outta hendric's book.
he once put on his facebook,
i'm thinking why is friendship as complicated as a relationship.
(something like that lar!!)

friendship is something built on trust.
how much do you trust the fella
dictates how deep your relationship is.

so inevitably
when your close friend betrays you,
backstab, badmouth etc etc.

so much for being friends hur?
i've experience this now and in the past,
seen my friends in such shit too.

i'm in no position to comment on people.
so i'm here to bitch about my own problems.

normally i'm such a peace loving dude.
i dont bear grudges.

only guy that made me do it is the fucker called
daniel lee.
i cant believe that my blood still boils when i see his name,
his face.
thank god the chances of me seeing him again is near zero.

recently?
haha i've encountered a lil problem with this friend

and with this new anger thats boiling up in me.
i duno why but i'm very easily pissed off,
dont believe ask nellie.
poor dude get from me duno how many times already.

so with this new anger,
things get even worst.

oh yea along with this new anger,
i've reach new heights of pushing my body limit.
been slping at 4am everyday,
eat like a pig,
ankle is giving me soo much problems
but i still go for soccer.
and i'm planning to go running.
i'm planning to burn midnight oil everyday till exams are done.

so i predict.
my temper will be on an uprising scale.
beware.
who noes maybe i will spit fire soon!!

haha.
alrite
its 446 now.

i shouldnt squeeze in anymore stuff..

2009-03-15T07:16:00.000-07:00

haha alritee
before i really get murdered by jo.
haha

bday celebration.
western food was the IN ting.
went for swensens at vivo on 6th mar fri with my family.
the price was OMFG!!

oh wells they include the salad buffet into it too..
salad buffet was not bad at all..
kinda cool also.
but the price isnt.

haha my lovely sisters were superbly generous this year!!
got a swatch watch, hush puppy shoe and a collector's edition of absolut vodka.
thanks a ton.
lurve u all deep deep.

actual day went out with the sim peeps and the guys!
darren n his darling,rr, regina,chloe,suqi,nellie and chu.
went for lunch at NYDC.
see!western again!!
thanks all for the nice presents!! loves it.
i got a cap,and a wallet from darren n rr.
2spongebob boxers, a earring,a poloshirt from the girls.
oh yea not to mention, the 2 nice cards they gave me.
and i DO NOT LOOK LIKE THE MR. SMILEY

alrite.
den was suppose to meet jo for supper at chomps.
den howw nicce of her to arrange with nellie andd nic for another bday surprise.
they chiong my hse and tao pok me!!
of course along with the guys lar!!
thanks to nellie again,nic, dan,hen,ken
lurb u all deep deep!!
oh yea.
how nice of jo too.
she and vans gave me this EXTRA LARGE patrick starr softtoy.
which is now like my girlfren!!haha
imagine having to carry that ard town the whole day!
ahaha
thanks my dalings!!!

friday the 13th.
went to SP to do van's enrolment.
i'm frm JC so i never knew that
poly enrolment is sooo mafun.
spent 3 or 4 hours there.

initial idea was to go to the IT fair at suntec early to avoid the crowd.
in the end we gave up.
went to marina to buy movie ticks
and dinner 1st
den we attacked the fair.
jo got her mini, i got my bag.
haha crumplerr? no lar bagman's the IN thing now!!! cos i say so!!

the movie was called coming soon!!
haha.
yes yes thanks to jo and vans again for arranging the surprise movie watching with the rest of the people!
lena,xianghui,wanyi,wilfred,sherman.

haha
their surprise was as good as my surprise for them!!
only i know that the show was a THAI horror film
hahahaha
shld have seen the faces of jo,vans and lena when they found out!!

nice show lar
one of the nicer horror show in a longgg time!!

after that was supper at xing wang!

who wud expect 22 celebration is a bigger bang den 21st?

thanks all for organising,coming,participating and tao poking!!
gman loves you all!!

ok...so now
jo i did not say anything abt u
so its alllll ALLLLL ALLLL plainly nellie's fault abt wat he say abt u on my tagboard.
i'mma innocent!! hahaha

i got a bruised rib frm the taopok.
my old ankle injury came back after soccer ytd.
i feel damn rusty, which is a sign for me to restart my diet and my exercises.

time to start studying again too!!

2009-03-06T11:03:00.000-08:00

happy birthday to me.
happy birthday to me.
like nellie said today.
"u old shit!"
haha yes i'm the 1st 22 in the gang.
ok in the guys grp.
cos.... JO is older!
hahahaha. =PP
i'm so gonna get murdered by her.

so i am 22 years into my life.
other 22 years old dudes are earning big bucks,
making big plans about life.
here i am stuck in this beautiful little red dot on the world map.
in a society where a piece of paper qualifications depicts ur entire future.
and slogging my life out studyin...(hmm not exactly lar)

and the nation ask you what are you defending?
what am i defending when...
our minister tells us to go to our sooo friendly neighbour
to die cos the medical charges there are so much cheaper.
and we are losing jobs to our highly esteemed foreign talents.
makes you wonder what are you actually defending hur?

but honestly speaking,
i find myself much much wiser than when i was 21.
i'm no longer deluded in certain matters.

the 22 years old guanghao is much more at ease.
he's very much at peace with his life now as compared to 2008.
u noe me well u'll get wat i mean.

but.
theres always a but in stories...

22 years now...
as i look back, i find myself wondering....
wondering how would it feel like
to have someone to plan ur birthday celebrations for you.

seeing how my guyfren's gals,
or my galfrens spend so much time, effort,energy, sweat
to plan,organise,gather the pple, and carry out
all just to make the guy happy.

haha yes i'm jealous.
i wondered how it will feel like.
but then again....
its just a tot,
gman's at peace with his world now...

nope this aint an emo post.
haven emo for some time! =)
i call this

recollection of my thoughts at 22.
i will do the same thing come 23!!

cheers to all.
thanks for your well wishes.
loves all.

2009-03-03T10:56:00.000-08:00

alrite i'm back.
one more paper on monday!

den its time to take a lil rest.
den back to seclusion.
sorry all if i go missing!!

loves my sistas to bits.
haha thanks for the gifts.

couple shirts are cute??
not when u wear it wif a fellow sex.
today me n darren wore the same color polo tee.
omg!! so gay.
nvm mines more expensive...

when u tell a lie,
no one says anyting it doesnt mean everyone buys it.
no one said a thing doesnt mean telling lies it alright and no one will find out.
when will you wake up?
come to ur senses?
wat happened to you?

haha short n sweet.
gotta run!!

2009-02-17T21:51:00.000-08:00

it has been forseen that
april and may would be jam packed to the max.

den i'll even haf lessons on SUNDAYS!
whole day lessons till 5.

so am making using of some time to blog abit more.

march maybe i'll play abit more
haha!
den sorry everyone
i'll disappear for sometime.

i wanna watch some movies just be4
i go and hide myself in seclusion.
i wanna go sing.
i wanna go ubin.
i needa some more soccer.
i need more of everything.
march is all abt me!!
hahaha

gosh fish leong's new song is nice!!

沒有如果

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f7-neZSZjM8

check it out.

some things happened.
gosh
how come like that?
ah hao also duno how.

2009-02-14T06:22:00.000-08:00

hellos!!!
i'm backk!!
once again happy valentines day to all!!
yes yes stop complaining that my blog is dead.
i'm 1st lazy to update,2nd i'm out of things to blog...

haha cny was busy...
so many things happened!!
however.... i wud nv miss out our family new year gambling session!!
haha not much luck this year.
din lose and din win much too...

so busy busy busyy

studying is an ass.
exams are coming at me at 160km/h..
and i'm feeling sucky to be sticking my butt on the chair to study..
someone pls super glue my ass to the chair!!!

howeverrr....
even with all the studyingg.
i'm not depriving myself of having fun!!
haha
new year was a season of TNE!!
Totally Non-stop Eating
steamboat, steamboat and morre steamboat.
damn i love the bak kuas...

oh yea
not missing out hanging out wif michelle and mingyue!!
=))

good news for arsenal fannss!!
the arsh is in!!
finally we bought some player!!
and soon all the powerhouse players will come back from injuries!!
v.persie,adebayor
rosicky, nasri, capt fab, arshavin, walcott

wow...
haha
come on get a 4th place at least!!!

oh no...
my ippt test window is gonna open soon...
no good no good!!
after a whole year of no exercise
and excessive eating...
how to run?!?!?
how to jump???
how to pull????
gosh, time to go back on my diet and workout!!!

i tink i nd to change my blog skin lo...
been using this for erm...
few years?
hahahha

k lar k lar i'm lazy lar.....
any good samaritans wanna help mee??

2009-01-16T09:35:00.000-08:00

hellos!!
1st post of 2009!

am damn lazy and busy to update.
so decided to drop in a post.
am predicting that i aint gonna post for another long hiatus.
shall wish all whoever is still reading this blog.

a
happy 2009!
happy chinese new year. many many ang pows.
and
happy valentines day!

haha oh man
see! i predicted myself to be unfree till after vday.
nope no dates on vday.
no one wants me=(

2009 started off with drunk dota
nice.

dota dota

but now i needa study study!!!

gosh stop dilly dallying ard lar guanghao!!

cny is coming.
but do u feel the festive mood?
i cant feel it.
haven gotten anyting yet!!
omg..
sponsors pls?

i'm sick now.
its sooo sucky
hates beening sick.

my right side of my body is injuried...
due to soccer
hahah tml's soccer aim is my left side of my body!!
yea
i'm siao
haha like i told the guys.
i have been siao for very long liao.

red cliff 2 is nice!
haha
its a guys' show lar
all war and tatics.

arsenal is like shit again..
sadded.
just spend the money!!! arsene!!
man city is mad...
100million pounds for kaka
and his wages will make him earn abt a million in 2 wks.
wtf lar

why aint i born to play soccer? whhyy?

hm...
since i aint gonna be back here for sometime.
hahah how can i miss the chance to do some emo?!!

haiz.
why why why
let me use finish my emo mana.. haha

3yrs.
come to think of it.
i also duno how i do it.
dudes.
liking someone on your part.
"yi xiang qing yuan"
its not easy at all

peeps tell me
let go let go
ha
put urself in my shoes and see if u can let go
if can den i wont like her for 3 yrs.
but i hate myself.
hate myself for being ur close frien.

close frien and bf.
the thin line.
i can never cross that line.
hey girl
i dun wanna just be ur close frien/buddy
i dont wanna just be ur fucking sister!
世界若是那么小为何我的真心你听不到

everytime i see u sad.
hear u cry on the phone.
but
i cannot nv be the one to put my hands over your shoulders.
你的身影这么近我却抱不到

=(

how i wish.
how i wish.

i rmb sometime close to xmas last year.
i've prepared myself for a super emo post online.
haha
but i nv post it up.

one sentence was.

"how i wish i could get the wen rou u give to them from u."

haha...

nvm

guys ignore this whole part.
its 217am
and i'm running a fever,flu cough.
am not thinking straight.
and the loser part of me is coming out.
just ignore me.
=)

i dunwanna drag tis emo post over chinese new year.
i also pangtang.
hahaha

for now.

the spongebob file is my precious...
(must imagine the guy in lord of the rings saying prreessiioousss)

dont say i nv say.
whoever,
WHOEver mess wif my file.
i will fuck u.

kk i'm madd...

and my emo mana count just drop to zero.

2008-12-24T11:42:00.000-08:00

silent nite, lonely nite.
haha its xmas again...
a year ago,
i was in camp doing guard duty.
now am at vans place.
party.
but..... we aint doin anyting
waiting for nel,nic,dar to come back.
they better not ps me..

last nite
party wif the sim peeps....
darren got dead drunk.
puked like no one's business...
alcohol is not the way to forget ur woes...
learn it the hard way man..
not gooda...
damage health.
when u wake up u feel worse.

haiz. so the reservist call came.
nxt june/july...
oh no....
hates it
nvm lar start early end early...

captain fab is injuried...
sadded.
let toure be the capt.
nott
NOTT gallas...
at least get a fourth lar.

hm....
hahha no more emo-ness from me.

few months ago.
i've planned a very emo post for year end.
but
i dont see the need now.
whats the point?

haha.

merry xmas my loves.

2008-12-09T23:21:00.000-08:00

i'm just a lil emo.
haha oh no tats bad...

nothing to post.

夜黑夜寂寞的夜里气生气对自己生气
软弱的电话又打给你
想听你那边的空气有什么精采的话题
你还是温柔给我婉转的距离
我的声音在笑泪在飙电话那头的你可知道
世界若是那么大为何我要忘你无处逃
我的声音在笑泪在飙电话那头的你可知道
世界若是那么小为何我的真心你听不到
会很会伪装我自己你不该
背我的秘密沉重都给我微笑给你
奔狂奔空旷的感情走暴走
暴走的伤心透明的叹息最后还是我的秘密
我的声音在笑泪在飙电话那头的你可知道
世界若是那么大为何我要忘你无处逃
我的声音在笑泪在飙电话那头的你可知道
世界若是那么小为何我的真心你听不到
听不到听不到我的执着扑通扑通一直在跳
直到你有一天能够明了
我做得到我做得到我的声音在笑泪在飘
电话那头的你可知道世界若是
那么大为何我要忘你无处逃
我的声音在笑泪在飙电话那头的你可知道
世界若是那么小为何我的真心
你听不到你听不到你听不到
啦.....
你听不到......

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8-7mqX_Nta0

mayday emo song.
haha.

fuck i lost my poa notes.

2008-12-05T02:27:00.000-08:00

hellos!! i'm back!!
busy busy shag shag....

worked for sitex to sell coms wif darren.
thanks bro for the lobang.
haha 1st time doin sales...
1st day was damn emo cos tot i cant do sales at all...
sold 1 laptop for the whole day...
but as time goes business gets better.
after doin f and b for some time...
sales is another different thing.
sales boost confidence, talk to pple better.
makes my skin thicker too...
rejection is part of the job scope..
made quite a few frens!!
haha

after sitex,
been wanting to keep up wif sch work
workload is piling...
assignments are coming in....
non is done yet..
as i count down the days...
sooon i'm gonna lock myself in to mug.
its nt far frm feb...
mocks are comingg to me like a monster...

anyway..
movies movies movies!!
bodies of lies,madagascar, chihuahua, quarantine, 4 christmases...
these are my records...
bolt anyone?
hhahaha

review?
hm......
bodies of lies is good!! prolly as good as blood diamond..
madagascar is nice... only cartoon i wud wanna watch in the cinemas..
chihuahua is kinda waste but the dogs are damn cute cos its all my momo dogs...
quarantine is ok...but gave me motion sickness..
nope it didnt scare me...
i need to find a horror show tat can scare me..
4 christmases, thou missed a large part of it... but its funny lar
nice show,just a lil too short and the ending is abit not nice..

soccer yes!! arsenal kicked chelsea's ass...
but i think we shld give up on the season alr... 3th place?
hahaha yes pls just dont drop outta the top 4....
and just get rid of bentner and denilson...
both are useless!!!
spend some money get some guys better!!!

economic crisis...
means little jobs for the grads nxt yr...
let all hope by 3 yrs time,
economy will recover.
and theres like tons n tons of jobs!!!!!
get me a good pay bank job!!!

yes! i found the link to the cute girl...
yes!!! hahahaha!!!
ma ma!!!
(hm...when was the last time i acted like tat??hm...)

oh yea
this is from me for all ma homies..

girls out there...
pls wake up ur idea..
stop ur stupid mind games,
stop being childish..
stop wif the "you can find a better girl than me" thing.
so u think guys are dumbass who just wanna screw u and f off?
do you really not think that we thought carefully and thoroughly that you are the one for us
before we really went into a relationship wif u?
pls stop the selfish act of thinking all by urself den after that
dropping the bombshell to us...
we aint 16/17
times where we play make merry.
we are 19/20/21..
adulthood! ladies....
grow up and communicate.
girls always say guys are rotten...
guys always emo over girls...
so just sit down talk it over and get a general consensus.
isnt it better??

hm....

nah... shant post emo stuff liao...

hopes hes nice to u! =)

2008-11-06T05:42:00.000-08:00

my stress level is escalating...
i needa a trash bin.
lend me your ear pls?

2008-10-25T01:31:00.000-07:00

so bored.
i haf no feelings on wat to write.

this is a conver between mr. k chu and me someday ago

Kelvin Hype Nation says: so do you still love me?
me: yeah i loves you deep deep.
Kelvin Hype Nation says: ok den i can sleep well tonight.

haha yea turning gays...

woots this week din play dota!!!
haha
cos nellie got robbed away =x
hhaha

am bored.

2008-10-09T07:33:00.000-07:00

hm... seriously i needa get my studyin engine starting!!
i cant take it being feeling all stupid at lectures tryin to understand
what the guy down there is talkin abt.

i needa study!!
gosh...

oh the other hand...~~
dota's getting more interesting.
team of nel nic sherm chu and me
are getting better!!
teamwork's getting better!!
=))

team of sherm lena xh wanyi and me
also getting better
=))

now... i needa a new hero!
haha!

vans o's is near!
goooda luck jiayou!!

stupid chu asked me tat night to blog cos he wanna read..
lazy ass duno how to blog
always post pics n a few words....
bloggin needs to haf the feel...
who wud wanna read like
today i wake up, brush teeth, eat,shit, bath, sleep.

and recently mr. k.chu has taken a liking to write into my maths lecture notes hur??
IN INK somemore!!
i'm gonna get my revenge!lol

hm... lets see any new events comin up nxxt.........
hm...

oOH! nel's bdae!!
hahahha
get ready to get ur ass raped bro.

year-end is coming!
xmas,new year, cny.
year-end has a special meaning..
hm....

matters of the heart.

the girl/guy that u like doesnt like u. =(
the girl/guy u like is attached. =(
the girl/guy u like is a les/gay. =(
the girl/guy doesnt give u a chance. =((

ur gf/bf doesnt treat you nicely. =(
ur gf/bf ignores u. =(
ur gf/bf quarrels with you over childish topics and it gets worst.=(
u wanna get back to your ex but he/she says no. =(
oh yea not to mention,
u fail to see your eyecandy. =(

hm.... nope i'm not emo-ing.
just random thinkings.
seems like so many =('s ard.
how wonderful wld it be if all the =('s are gone.
and it becomes:

the guy/girl u like, likes you too.=)
the girl/guy u like is attached to u. =)
no more les, and more gays! =)
the girl/guy u like gives you a chance. =))
u got back wif ur "ex" =)
u and ur gf/bf doesnt quarrel over childish stuff, doesnt ignore u and treats u nicely.=)
ur eyecandy is actually very near you and likes you too =)

see?! all the smileys makes this space feel better?
someone gimme a magic wand.
i'll cast a spell to make all this come true.

cheer ups for all those feeling down.
spread some smiles for all those who are smileys.

recently i'm thinking...
maybe i shld raise this concern to some.
but i tink its stupid.
but i ccant help not feeling it.

brotherhood:
over advises goes in a circle.
but situations are not the same.
solutions are not the same too.
company is the best comfort.

that day my frien was asking me.
"hey my bf bdae coming i wanna get him a braun buffel wallet but my friends say its lousy quality. any idea for presents?"
ahah i gave a few.
den she asked.
"ok, wat do you want your gf to give u?"

wow tat kinda knock me off.
1stly, yea i nv had a gf so i dont expect anyting.
2ndly, i'm simple. i like anyting as long as it really came frm the heart and not anything she just simply walk into the shop and grab one.
the tots tat counts yea?

gf giving u a pressie hur?
lucky asses out there.

today,
darren wrote on my notes.

"i miss her"

i wrote back.
"me too"

2008-09-25T09:47:00.000-07:00

back to back to back activities!!
omg...
one week of late night studies...
den tis week was....
sun was hen's bdae
haven went so mad since i last went clubbing man..
did things i would only do wif this grp of guys man...
we sang, we acted, we drank, we dance,
we did backstreet boys, omg...
pics all go to facebook pls!!
monday shop after sch,
thou only get psp for jo's sis,
then see the girls get their cosmetics...
haha!! see them try out tis try out that,
jnel being the proster..

tues was ubin day.
omg i swear jnel pissed everyone off! haha
all her screaming, sudden breaking of bike,
her complaints!
for the 1st time in my life i see someone who got off the bike
to push the bike DOWN A SLOPE!!!!
hahaha totally soo funny!!
we had a nice dinner!!
crabs are uberly humongous.
the sun is killing,
sun burnt!!

wed was supposed to go kayaking
but we changed to swimming instead.
swimming is just not my sport.
i can do every sport on land.
in water i suckedd!

after tat was DOTA!!
lena,xh,sherm,Wanyi and me
vs
nic nel chu.

haha those 3 tot we were pushovers
lol but still we lost but nice game man!

after tat we found an even better game!!
PUDGE WAR!!
ahahaha
everyone pls play pudge war.

today was badminton plus bball.
haven ball for super duper long...

badminton too.

now my arm ache,
my ankle's killing me.
i'm shagged out.

and tml got sch!!

tml goes to ikea after sch.

nice! i like.

oh yea i'm supposed to put up my wishlist.

i wanna:
1. a new mp3 wif fm
2. my holland jacket, but i doubt it'll ever be mine.
3. new spec, and contacts.
4. my crumpler bag
5.haf the resolution to go running, gyming to get my body to fitness,
ippt is coming!!
6. maybe a pair of new shoes?
7. a cute lovable sugar mama/rich gf/sponsor to finance all my wishes.

so if u think you are lovable, cute,
pm me.
hahaha!! =)
i will love u deep deep.

i wanna cut my hair.
shld i trim it? and leave long?
or cut short back to my short hair???!
hellp!
short or long?!?!?

k man lets clear out something!
haha
i haven been dieting for long time alr.
its just after my dieting period,
my stomach can survive wif much lesser food.
so i'm NOT dieting.
i'm just maintaining food intake.
come on man, lets admit it.
who likes a fat guy hur?
i needa go gym to tone.
haha

previously i've been editing my posts.
trying not to irritate, anger pple.
but,
i'm taking a leaf outta nel's book.
its my space here.
i will rant whatever i want from now on.

but!
haha i've got nothing much to say now leh..
haha

kk just tis.

someone said.
i'm the only one who's open minded enuf
to so willingly become the spare tyre.
kk 1st,
that kinda hurt cos its harsh words.
but nah heck it.
i dont care.

2ndly,
like i said before, at that point of time,
all i see was her being sad.
so i stupidly did not mind tat as long as shes happy.
yea
tats so simple.

matters of the heart is so conplicated,
everyone in the brotherhood went thru that.
darren's the one now.
hey bro hopes u'll get it settled soon.
like u said to me tat time,
i dunwanna see you like tat.
listen nel!!haha
frm now on,
i'm tryin to stick to the bros be4 holes rule.
=D

been rethinking things u guys tell me
some are beginning th make sense.
gimme somemore cents, it'll all make dollars!

argh!! i'm pissed.
i wanted to type somethings in chi.
but i cant find the translator.
i went to tis chinese site,
and its so darn hard to translate wat i wanna say
its like i type ............you
den it comes out ..........您 instead of the normal ni.
gettit?
so irritated.

only time will tell.

2008-09-09T06:00:00.000-07:00

oh no suddenly i realised that i got a whole ton of tutorials to do!!
die now i need alot of time and alot more braincells.

watched 4bia today wif nel, so many pple say its horrifying. ers? no?
i think i really watched too much horror show when i was younger, seems like its been along time since i last gotten scared by movie.come on directors, get me a scary show..haha!
but i need to find a perm horror movie buddy.everyone dunnwanna go scary movie with me... =(

money makes the world go round.
so guys u need to have at least some money.
get a car, get some bling bling, then u'll get the girls.
its a practical world, some are practical pple.
last time it was the 5Cs now its like a million Cs.
haiz.....

hahah this is a result from a conver with a girl friend.

any new movies to intro?

dota last nite was hell like.. wow
total thrashing. pls nel either u let me use LR if not teach me new hero.
my veno skills cannot make it lar!!

i wanna eat bak kua!!!
lust for food after my sickness....

revised version...
What hurts the most, is when you know the person you love, is thinking and/or caring for someone else and you cant do anything about it. the pain hurts like hell, an undesirable, heart wrenching feeling.

i got a wishlist....
but i nv complete anything on the wishlist before...
haiz...

wishlist coming up nxt entry.

gman lurbs you.

2008-09-02T10:05:00.000-07:00

hellos i'm backk!
its like wat? a month since i 1st started sch?

its damn hard for me to get my study engine to restart..

pbf and poa are foreign to me...like totally.
econs and maths are like things i've lost and am trying to find them backk!!
omg.. pls pls pls let me start studying again... i dunwanna fail this time.. nonononono...

pple keep tellin me that theres pretty girls in sim...
i haven seen many, or rather any yet....
heck it, study study.....

guang guang.. cigarettes are bad... badd...

guang guang... dota is an addiction!! addiction!!!!
haha
cant help but to loves it.
dota is so fun see nell and nic getting damn stressed over me sherm n chu getting pwn..
yes chu u are included!! haha!!
soon guys soon.... once i get less blurr my razor is gonna be good...
haha i'm getting better!!

death race is a good movie..
the amercian-chinese is damn funny.
supposed to be a cantonese but has a hokkien name!!
haha 14k!! thats my name baby!
the girl is very very hot. dead hot.. wow....

made a trip back to sch just to sign a stupid paper.
why din i sign it just before sending it up?!
damn.. brain degenation symptons.

ccb nellie every time say i tu... so when we do make the trip to register what happened er??
haha nv do ur homework properly lar bro...

i need to go back to do some sports.
so running, soccer, bball, gym will do me some good...
i'm soo lazing my ass off everyday.. i dunwanna put on those weights that i lost.
maybe this time i will go wif the healthy losing weight approach.

girls...
a lesson.
sometimes when guys do things for you.
not all expect something back in return.nope not all.
maybe a word of thanks, maybe nothing at all.
cos its just what they wanna do, and what the heart tellls them to do.
yea its tat simple.
rmb girls not all guys are aiming to get something from you.

ok kop from nellies blog...

What hurts the most, is when you know the person you love, is thinking of someone else and you cant do anything about it. the pain hurts like hell, an undesirable, heart wrenching feeling.
i feel ya bro.
haha

what do you do when you have too much tots running thru ur mind?
years back when the hormones start kicking in. i used to write.
recently i got back tat habit.

i got a damn long letter written, and addressed.
but its a letter without a stamp.
i'll prolly keep it somewhere in the drawer.
haha

smile babe smile..

i guess i'm gonna be back to what i do best at.
tat is ......*secret*
haha you noe me, u'll noe it lor

haha so do you think you noe me well enuf?

funny little conver i had wif nel today.
never bite the same branch.
bros before holes.
haha yep i understand.

omg. arsenal din buy any good, experienced players in the end....
but nasri is good..wonderful....
lets hope tis season is gonna be a good show.
even manc is goin mad now.... robinho!! omg... wenger u better not lose ur touch!!
where did tottemham get all their money?? let hope they go into many many debts!!
ahaha evil. yes. cos you are thy rival.

yes my hair is growing long....
how shld i keep it?
hairband style like chu? or my current nerdy nerdy look?cut it short again?hmmm......
haha ah hao doesnt noe how....
how hao?

recently got lotsa nice songs.
recently went back to listen to eng songs.
nope i'm still into chinese!! ahaha

this song is not bad..

oh mans...
sch life is kinda busy. i need time management for my sch work.
work takes away my weekends just like tat..i'm missing my weekend soccer wif my guys...
dota is new addiction. late night dota wif buddies, haha seeing their pek cek faces.hey guys we are starting to win now alrites! soon i aint gonna be feeder. =D

i'm very pissed wif tis someone.
such a bastard. it really drives me to the wall.
be glad tat you dont noe me.and i dont wanna noe you. but u ccb, i dare you to come and provoke me.
i'll sink my fist into your fist. i swear i wont be using tkd on u. i'll just prolly murder you.
cos you are such a bastard.

haven had such a temper breakout in years.
who am i talkin abt? haha only i noe.
heck hes such a nobody, it wont bother my daily life.

hey babe,
noe you are very cramped up with sch work too.
chill and get some more slp!!
exams are coming, just start to focus on studyin yea?
after tat we dotas!=D

loves,
G

i really tried. tried.
but i still hold on to it.
i'm no longer emo.
nope i'm not exactly happy inside.
but all i need is just see ur smile.
hm... tats all i can have isnt it? haha nah
tats so loser.

2008-08-18T09:03:00.000-07:00

i still dont have the courage to blog things out.
i found out and realise the greatest pain already.
(pm me if u wanna noe wads tat! hahas)

hm...
ever since the euros started.
i really wanted the holland jacket.
now i'm thinking shld i spend the money.
but heck i'm surviving on mere salary of very little...
what more i cant lose hur?
come to me cheap cheap jackets...comee...

no more pendulum.
just many broken pieces.
and i'm closed f.g.

2008-08-12T10:54:00.000-07:00

i hadnt have the guts to blog out things running thru my mind now.

let me grow some balls 1st..

no pendulum.
just many broken pieces.

2008-07-16T10:57:00.000-07:00

why is it that this period of time
more people are emoing.

my dinosaur friends,
we grew up togets,
shared jokes,
shared hard times in sch,
shared quality time playing n foolin ard
shared good times bio-ing girls.
coming from 10 years all guys schs.
as we grow up
we share more emo stuffs.
but recently i see the soft side of them.

today bought food for nellie.
heard he nv eat much recently.
was gonna force food into him.
he ate a few mouthfuls.
den vomited.
scare the shit outta me.
so i dragg him to the doc.
took a jab den sent him home.

we all do stupid tings at times for the matters of the heart..
hurts me when i see my dinos like tat.
but things regarding the matters of the heart
we outsiders cannot do anyting but to console.
theres only one correct "medicine" for such illness man.
hopes tings are all well for u my bro.

heard you crying again.
i suddenly got lost.
almost screw up the drink i was making.
after that my mind was not on work alr.
saw u walking in with the sad face.
had the mighty urge to go and console u
hold u.
but
1stly) i got no balls to do it. scared of rejection
2ndly) my orders just keep piling up.

when i was abt to clear the orders to go and talk to you.
u left for home.

pls turn back the pendulum..

2008-07-13T08:52:00.000-07:00

saturday was my grandma's bdae!
shes 81 alr!!
omg!
how time flies.
i bet she musta feel very happy man.
cos i overheard her tellin my mum n my aunt
she see soo many of us today
that she couldnt eat.
musta been nice to see all your children
grandchildren coming together to celebrate your bdae.

hm.......

hm.............
how long is long for you?
days? months? years?
its random.
yea i noe.

hey missy,

its been what close to 4 years since we've know each other?then its been close to 4 years of how i feel man. many peeps asked me why? why i like you so much?Seriously, its the feeling. i like being with you. i like you for being you. i love your smiles and laughters. theres no reason, i just like you!

since knowing you.we got to know more pple.gotten closer.done tings i nv would imagine i wud do.take neo printSS?!?!? sing k. rollerblading!! since knowing you.youve gone into 2 relationships.i went thru 2 years army.emo times in the green uniform thankfully for my army buddies.now? thankfully i have my old old friends.

so when i did actually grow enough balls to tell you again that i like you. i left for taiwan.
came back mixed feelings, not knowing how would your reaction be.soon the nxt 2 wks was my happiest times.but time goes too fast too furious.

now months past march, i still very much like you. i still very much hope. i still very much hope i can have a moment. like the song yang cong. can i get a chance??

much loves,

guangs

you got some pain behind those eyes.

smile my pretty.
smile.

pls turn back the pendulum.

2008-07-08T09:10:00.000-07:00

Fall For You

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed but I have loved you from the start

Oh, But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible
So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold on to your words
Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

emo song!

went to accompany darren today.
relationship problems.

in a relationship
theres only 2 people.
u and her/him.
if you are dumb enough to get affected by what others say.
arent you
1. too sensitive?
2. too immature?

not compatible?
see no future?

do you really need to care if others say that you are not compatible?
in that case
many couples will have to break up alr!
as long as she/he fits your eyes perfectly.
who gives a fuck wad others think?

see no future?
yesterday is history
tml is a mystery
today is a gift
thats why its call present.

what happened to my today?
my "future" already got condemm..

future is a mystery
its molded by our own hands.
who can "see" future?
give a chance to mold it together.

i tink this might come a lil late.
=(

you noe.
when i emo to my friends.
they tell me things that
they saw.
that they think i didnt.

i did.
but still....
following your heart.
following mine.

i tink i mention it hell lotsa time alr.
but since its the truth.
i will still say it.

i seriously love your smile.
it really brightens up everything.
so like i said
smile girl smile.
pretty smile pretty girl.
anyway its not just only the smile
that i like.

sch starts in 3 weeks time.

back to sch.
back to using brains...
omg.

sometimes
work can be fun
sometimes it can be very sian.
its fun with the peeps u work wif.
its sian cos if i'm at the bar and the orders keep pilling up
tats
when u start to kan jiong.

=(

pls turn back the pendulum.

2008-07-05T10:35:00.000-07:00

omg went to east coast park
today!
rained for a while.

den i put on blades for the 1st time since i was like 8?
used to noe how to blade a bit back then
but soo many years of not blading.
cant blade for nuts.
so it resulted in me fallin
n falling.
and falling....
i cant keep my CG to the front!!

sometimes i hate myself.
hates it when i tink much.
hates its when i emo.

but when i emo.
i emo.

such a pretty girl.
=)
such a beautiful smile.
=)
so near yet so far.
=(

i cant stop the feelings.
but i cant find the doorway in..
anyone to show me some lights?

ive got alot of things to say.
alot of feelings.
alot of tots.
maybe i need to get it out.

nvm
whenever i see her smile.
it lightens up my day!

turn back the pendulum pls??

2008-07-01T12:14:00.001-07:00

ok ok fast fast.
short short.
i nd to wake in in 4 hrs time for my sch orientation

wads with the pple goin to gardens.
why do u hang out so late on mondays n tuesdays!!
dont u all haf work to do?!?!
hahaha
nv knew mondays n tuesdays at happy daze is so busy!!
thank god i'm not workin tml!

very rarely i put chinese words here.
but here it is!
宁愿让自己痛苦也不想让你不开心

pls turn back the pendulum?
pretty pls?

2008-06-30T12:32:00.000-07:00

PISCES - The Partner for Life

Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. Messy at times and irresponsible! Smart but lazy. High appeal. Has the last word. Good to find, hard to keep. Passionate, wonderful lovers. Fun to be around. Too trusting at times and gets hurt easily. Lover of animals. VERY caring, make wonderful nurses or doctors. They always try to do the right thing sometimes get the short end of the stick. They sometimes et used by others and hurt because of their trusting. Extremely weird but in a good way. Good Sense of Humor!!! Thoughtful. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet. Good friend to other but need to be choosy on who they allow their friends to be.

lol i'm caring and kind!!! haha
aint it true peeps?

soccer on sat.
now its monday
and my calfs are still very very sore.
damn i need more exercise.

sun watched euros final with
nana,xh,sherm,wanyi,jere tan and nic
at serangoon macs.

yesh spain won!
boohooo we din win money.

bad habit of mine to come online after work
late at night.
went supper with nic n wanyi.
thank god nic drives.

had to bath when i rich hm.
smell of alcohol.

watched wanted with nana,xh,sherm,wanyi n nic.
thats one more show that i wanted to watch off my list!
got tons of shows i wanna watch man.

i've been a big fan of small lil talks with peeps.
enriching,helpful,emo-ful
but its nice.

been having lil talks with nic.
emos.
haha

sometimes its cause we noe people for so long
and so well that we speak freely.
no offence made no offence taken.
loves all my bros.

lil talks,
sharing of life's little lessons.
friends,
my trashbox for my feelings.
family,
peeps who are genetically destine to love you.
elmo,
my lovable,cute tail-waggin, cute dog.
nights,
time for tots and emos.
you,
my =)

smile, babe always smile.

pls turn back the pendulum.

2008-06-24T12:54:00.000-07:00

2nd consecutive night blogging after work.
its damn unhealthy
cos its 4am now!!

omg.

tml is germany n turkey.
who will win??

why is eveyone so surprise when i jio for mambo hur??
pls i also noe that i very longg nv go liao
but no nd for the such a response guys!

back to behind the bar
bartending that is...
forgot all the drinks how to make alr.

sorry customers.
wait wait wait for ur drinks k?

i reallised pple from all boys schh
like me
10 yrs boys sch
our brotherhood aside
we suck at girls.

tats the bad thing abt being in all boys sch man.

i shall go alr.
my body is really goin mad.

tml haf to wake up in time to go out.
someone wake me up pls??

"so near, yet so far"

turn back the pendulum pls??

2008-06-23T11:17:00.000-07:00

very long since i last blog consecutively.

so now after work
2.19 am.

am online.

today patrick officially fell off frm my bottle.

he's with me for abt 3 yrs?
haha
feel so sad..
its like losing a frien u noe.
cos patrick nv fails to perk me up...

hm.... maybe cos i'm getting down....
=(
haiz
emos emos emos.

oh wells
emos

turn back the pendulum.

2008-06-22T11:25:00.000-07:00

i cant believe that i'm starting sch
on 4 aug.

after 2 yrs plus of not using my brains.
gonna get back to maths,
econs,
sittin in lectures.
doin tutorials.
exams!!
OMG!!!
haha nvm theres bonus.
sit in lectures bio girls..
ahaha
gotta find an eyecandy like
the good old times in cjc!!
hahaha

come to think of it the
fun times where even my classmates help me hunt my eyeccandy
give me the best sits with the best views!!
hahas
when we were still young.....
ok i'm starting to sound like an old man again...

yays tml is back to happy daze.
no longer bumming my ass ard...
work= money
no work = wallet getting lighter, bank acct getting lesser.
work= busy= keep my mind off things....
but!
work= miss my 7pm felicia chin show!!!!

when was the last time i ever played like last night at the park behind my hse??

hm.... let me guess...
when my age was a single digit??
hahaha

omg lar

nics a nice guy everybody...
he insisted to drive everyone back last night.
den we had supper back at rk hse.
nice lil talk we had.
nice lil talk.

oh wells...
oh wells....

spain n italy in 15 mins time..
spain pls kick the shit outta italy!!

alot of things to say.
putting them in words sounds damn stupid to me.

turn back the pendulum pls.

2008-06-13T11:38:00.000-07:00

so i'm home
after a funny night at the xing wan hk style cafe at kovan.
soooo many many jokes..
or were we too high??
now we got new ways of finishing the mango ice quickly.
tah!!!
muahhahaha =D

hm...
its time for some emos kays?
hahahas...

lets skip the details.
think those noe one will noe lar.
those duno den duno lor.
=P

been hanging out wif chu n derek.
gotta loves the times we sit togets n emo hur?
so nice cos they dont ask for details.
just allows u to emo.
vice versa.
certain pple when u see them,
its a relieve of emotions.
loves those peeps like chu n derek
nic n dar.

coming back to think abt it.
past 3 girls i ever liked??
they all got damn good nice smiles.
one has a damn sweet smile.
one i cant rmb alr but smiles are nice.
the last probably the nicest,prettiest smileys i ever seen in 21 yrs.
and i still love that smile.
[disclaimer] felicia chin is DAMN pretty anyways. =p

so maybe i finally found the answer to
"wad do u see when u look at girls?" question hur?

as u all noe.
nothing turns out.
=(
oh wells.
life sucks,
mine sucks like mad.

haha sometimes i wonder
maybe someone blog surfs n read all these.
wont they go like.
"chey! what a loser!"
but heck it.

recently i had tis damn nice dream.
wow!!
but gotta woke up by my fone.
damn it!!
the dream shld just go on forever.
dream on gman.
dream on.....

i have this shirt.
the printings are.
patience.

oh wells....
been avoidin to wear it alr.

=(

lets tune up the band for more yan zhong wei's yang cong.
the lim you jia's bo le also can.

okays...
i missed a huge chunk of the holland n france match alr.
gotta go off soon!

got soooo many movies coming out
hulk. dark knight.
mummy3 and more....
but as always i got no peeps to watch wif..

i watched lakers vs celtic tis morn.
game 4
celtics won!!!
yay!!
i'm a anyteam-but-lakers fan.
celtics betta win the championship

arsenal must be good nxt season too!!
pls.
anyway arsenal's nxt seasons home kit looks like our
sg kit.
sooo not nice.

kk
chu and derek read HERE!!
the girls in uol banking and finance
are noooottt baddddd!!!!
muhahahahahhaha
change course lar!
haha

life is like a white piece of paper.
not much space for writing.
you only have 2 pages.
the front and the back.
who will be in it?
who will fill the majority of the space?

okay kop frm libings old post.

at my funeral.
i just want a few good friends
and some happy songs.
=)

turn back the pendulum pls

2008-06-08T10:22:00.000-07:00

so its happy bday to my sis
happy bday to zhihui too
not like u'll noe i wished u here!
haha

my head is exploding.

now i'm seriously sure someting is wrong wif my
body system.
1st recently theres times i cant grip chopsticks properly.
2nd i keep hearing a screechin sound.
n now my head is exploding.

i feel damn lazy.
lazy to go exercise.
lazy to go meet up with peeps.
lazy to make tat call for job.
someone kick my ass.
someone make me wake up pls.

what does it mean if ur right eye lid keeps twitching?
mine did the whole day..

recently i had a dream for the 1st time in i-duno-how-many months.

haven u wished tat sometimes if dreams could be true
how wonderful it would be hur?

wishes doesnt come true
does it?

what a loser.

there aint alot of tings to be happy abt nowadays isnt it?
oh wells..

turn back the pendulum pls?

2008-06-02T01:23:00.000-07:00

weather sucks as usual.
miss soccer man.
actually i missed all sports.
damn it.

sunday went to hang ard wif chu n blackie.
what happens when 3 guys hang out?
haha
emo stuffs,
jokes
and moree jokes.

no more sushi for me now...
been going to sushi teh!
wtf...
soooo scary.
soooo expensive.

i haf to gonna hit the gym soon man
before reservist comes knocking.
if not halfway thru the training my shoulder pops out again.

oh wells...

sucks.

someone turn back the pendulum.

2008-05-29T08:00:00.000-07:00

last few days been living off cornflakes as lunch!!

no more!
my parents are back!!
hahaha.

so happy the 7 pm channel 8 show got
my favourite felicia chin!!!
soooooo pretty.

lifes getting pretty boring.

was doin some cleaning up recently.
guess wad i found??

hahaha a love letter!!!
wtf!!!
i cant believe i wrote tat years back.
kill me now i wont write another one.
haha i shld burn it soon!
those were the days
young n innocent hur?
haha heck i'm still innocent!
lol.

i need a haircut.
maybe dye my hair.
bloody weather sucks.

2008-05-25T07:29:00.000-07:00

i'm blogging more often nowadays..
cos i got no work!!!

went wif my sis to send my parents off for their cruise!!

whoohoo!!
no government in the hse for the nxt few days.
but den again...
i haf to settle my 3 meals myself...

lunch buddies anyone??

soccer last nite was fun!!
hadnt seen sooooo soooo many pple in such a long time.
almost FULL attendance man...
loves it.
but after tat whole night was on the verge of gettin leg cramps.

just watched the charity show for the china quake.
it was so sad.
sometimes i really want to be out at the frontline helpin in the search.
but i realised i cannot handle the emotional side.
so to all those out there in china.
hang in there!
loves and help ard you.
gman feels ya.
we shld feel grateful tat we live in SG.

Praise, like gold and diamonds, owes its value only to its scarcity.

- Samuel Johnson

so.. i shld not praise easily!!
haha.
be glad when i praise u the nxt time!
=D

june is a period of lotsa lotsa
birthdays.
21st somemore!!
wad the.......

i'm such a poor bloke in month of june....
i needa a job!!

2008-05-23T23:06:00.000-07:00

been movie goin.
what happened in vegas and
made of honor.
i'm still waiting for peeps to go wif me for indiana jones 4.

why is san antonio spurs losing to stupid lakers??

pls let some magic happen to arsenal again.

am goin for soccer laters.
am missing the times playin bball.
haven been ballin' for eons.

words can be such a killer.
the only comfort i get recently was
the "i love you" i got frm a goood frien.

haha lurve ya too.

hm.... maybe i shld start loving myself
haha
eat more.
but i'm so happy tat i lost weight!

i'm having a hard time accepting.
i dun want to.
perhaps.
no one else will be the same.

2008-05-20T11:03:00.001-07:00

will make it as short as possible.
i needa my sleep man...
tml got work!

actually theres so many things in my mind now.
i duno how to translate to words.

too many things happened over the past month.
too fast too furious.
even the gman's brain cannot work at tat rate.

sometimes.
&%(%(^$(&%

i really duno how to put into words..
this is a waste of blogspace.

damn.

been in love with yan zhong wei's yang cong recently anyway.
come on..
bring back the sad sad mayday songs!
haha

gman loves u all...
YOU!!
everyone.
sorry to those tat i cant meet up for this period.
u noe tat i lurb u
hahaha
ok i'm goin crazy.

2008-05-15T07:32:00.000-07:00

let me emo once more k?

i'm losing my ability to shut things up..
cant help it nowadays.

fuck it.

back-watching is a terrible thing to do peeps.
(how many times i've done it?)
damn it someone kill my emotions.

output for work is gonna be more den input frm work soon...
needa to go back happy daze
so i can cut down on expenses...

jia you to all the peeps in the china earthquake.
i feel ya.

loves the smiles.

2008-05-13T05:44:00.000-07:00

hello world
after a hiatus i'm back...

recent weeks went thru some
good times n bad times bah..

tried liking someone before?
tried liking for very very very very long?
i did.
lets put in an anology.
its like
two persons walking in a line.
i could nv catch up to walk beside you..
to me tats like best thing in life hur?
i'm having as goood chance as goin back to retrieve that
bottle of shells in camp hur?

i'm clearing my mood these days..

shall keep this to myself forever.

so
smile babe
smile...
ur smileys are so much better!
and its worth much more.
everyone prefers the happy girl.
=)
(u noe i really like tat smile.
so cheers!!)

worry not 5 of us will be there to pick u up once more.
i noe i will!!
worry not gman's here.
=D

on a diff note.
work is killing my back....
back breaking stuff....
wad to do?
sold our souls for the $$
like weimeng says.

i'm gonna go on a diet.
cut some cost lose some weight.
hope i can find time to do some training too.
i needa run.
needa hit the gym.

to my tis dear frien.
if u do read tis.
pls dont tink so much..
pls just dont.

i'm so sad now...
the patrick starr stick on my water bottle is peeling off!!
noooo!!!
its wif me for 4 yrs alr!!
come to tink of it i needa a new bottle man..

lets play some dry swimming!!
told ya my da san yuan ting will work.

i wanna watch indiana jones 4!!!
someone pls...
dont like my ironman
no one to watch wif....
so depressed.

i'm gonna give this post a title.
onli for this post.

am signing off!
gman loves all.
( i tink. =X)

2008-04-29T06:18:00.001-07:00

its over.

2008-04-28T11:00:00.000-07:00

i love to sit down to think.
many a times i think too mcuh
far too much.

"bo bian lor pple sensitvie mah!"
haha tats sound so stupid..
nope its not sensitive
its just guanghao..

now come to think of it.
i noe it alr...
i noe......
hahaha

lets hope time is on my side...

whenever i wanted to blog i alway think of lotsa stuff to write abt
but when i do it,
everything dissapates...

sometimes somethings i'd always wanted to say it
say ask in spoken it nxt thru text msg and all...
but place,time,event and fate always doesnt permit it...
i hope nxt time i can do it
ie speak to the person..no more text...

life is such an irony....
everything is.

past 21 yrs.
ive been in this stupid vicious cycle...
like a curse.
i cant get out of it....
i really hate it.
but wad to do?

2 ways of removin curses...
1. try n try till u break the curse.
2. try n try till the curse breaks u.
( its either tat or i'm the ultimate loser...haha)

i really hope to break the curse with you...

mahjong becomes a hobby...

2008-04-21T02:21:00.000-07:00

there are time when
you have a lot of tings to say,
to blog abt
but when u start doin it....

it doesnt formulate into words....

i'm experiencing it now...

2008-04-20T03:20:00.000-07:00

teach me how to fly a kite.

2008-04-15T22:47:00.000-07:00

i duno if anyone still reads here.
if you are thank you.

recently i made this statement.
men only fuss abt 2 things.
1. money.
2. girls.

i'm fussing over the latter.

some one pls teach me how to break into your heart.
i nv once wanted to replace that someone.
but i just want to be the one there
takin care and lovin you.
we are all in such a dilemma.
normally
guanghao is always the one without probs.
now someone help me.

ever since years back.
then i couldnt resist you.
how could i now?

omg lar!!!!
help lar

2008-04-09T07:02:00.000-07:00

i'm back frm my tripp!!

so fun...

now i needa get a job.

so much things goin on now....

gotta go.
will be back soon!

2008-03-25T08:43:00.000-07:00

time to do a lil blogging here...
been really lazy to blog nowadays.
i'm just days away frm my taiwan trip!
cant wait to go!
but
my oh my, i haf to be at the airport at ard 6 plus in the morn!! omfg.

recently,
theres the conflict happening between china and tibet.
so sad.
so sad.
now some peeps are campaigning to boycott the olympics.
i think politics is politics and sports is sports.
lets not mix them yea?

somehow to me when i saw a video of
the tibetian monks rioting,
fighting with the police,gong an.
its like so so wrong...
aint them the ambassodors of peace?
to achieve peace with violence hur?

but in history,
isnt the way for many many cases?
humanity hasnt improved ever since.
yes gandhi and several others are few of the very few examples
of successful pple in having peace the un-violent way.

but so so many examples iin the modern times
we do not practice that anymore.
peace is obtain thru violent means.
invade,attack,
eliminate the "trouble makers"
clear out the dead, do damage control.
then declare to the world that peace has come...

wow...

ok that sounds like i'm doin a gp paper
but yeah thats wad came to my mind...

ok ok
i still got more tots.

a few years ago
1st april
april fool's day
the chinese world was rocked by the news
of this famous actor who died.
everyone thought it was just a joke.
its one of the most cruel jokes ever.

*disclaimer* i'm not tryin to be stupid or wad.
i'm not cursing myself.
i'm just trying to pour out my thoughts.

so this april fools day.
what if another cruel joke takes place??
and the joke's on me?
(choy choy i'm not cursing myself!! its a wad if alrites?)

i duno its just this feeling came over me...
it is comes true....
i've got so many things undone.
so many things unsaid.

years ago,
i've spoke to this frien.
ive told her,
"i think i'm prepared to go at an early age."
but now i've really got tons of things undone and unsaid.

now i'm depressed....

i shant go on...
later i'll spill like the inner most things out here....

on the lighter note,
wad the heck drogba screw you.

oh yea to this fella out there....
i curse u asshole!

2008-03-17T02:51:00.000-07:00

All those who have played on the field would have tasted defeat.
Theres no player in this world who has not lost before.
However,
the best would give everything he's got to stand up again.
Ordinary players take a while to get back on their feet.
While losers remain flat on the field.

2008-03-13T00:02:00.000-07:00

ord loh!!!
ord loh!!!
yesh!!

feel my happiness!

anyways will be goin to taiwan on 1st april.
cant wait...

so bz celebrating....
now my room is in a mess
i'm getting a nagging frm my parents.
i need some magic to magik my room clean!

tis blog is kinda getting public so i'm beginning to reduce
the emo stuffs here...
haha those who know will know where to read the emo stuff.

10,000 bc is nice alrite peeps...
ive watched it twice...

spiderwick chronicles anyone?

oh yea i need a job!!!
no sugar mama to finance meee.......

tears and emotions

i can handle emotions,
tears is my killer....
cry not, cry not.

just watched mtv channel.
heard mayday's ting bu dao.
you shld go read their lyrics....
made sense to me suddenly..
now i'm getting all emo emo....

maybe i shld just get back to my world wif just felicia chin
haha

2008-03-06T10:07:00.000-08:00

hellos!
i'm back for this short post..
been on nonstop action since i last blogged!

plenty of clearance to sign in camp,
plenty of planning did for my bdae and my taiwan trip.
made the trip down to sim to register for my life after army.
made trips for shopping for food and stuff.
went to the IT fair just now,
my sis gt herself a laptop cos she says i hog onto the pc at home!
hey! i'm not rich enuf to get my own lappy!

so in conclusion...
i spent tons and tons! of money!!

am currently damn pissed off at facebook cos it takes a zillion year to upload a single pic
and i dont only haf tis one pic!
or is it just my com?
haha

kk those waiting for my bdae pics pls wait somemore will do it
as fast as facebook allows!

ciao!

2008-02-20T06:07:00.000-08:00

finally some rest...

sunday went to pulau ubin...
riding bicycle was fun...
i've long forgotten the last time i rode bicycle for long distance...
the seafood was kinda cheap,
not bad tasting too!

the aftermath was bad....
my butt hurt for the whole of monday...
shag max!

tues went on for a NE trail.
theres this war memorial,
words were inscribed onto it.
"they died that we may live"

yes!
6 more working days!

2008-02-13T06:32:00.000-08:00

non-stop action for chinese new year!
ate like theres no tml.
took bus ard like theres no tml.
then visit places like theres no tml.
eat like theres no tml.
eat like theres no tml
and eat like theres no tml.....

if this continues tml better come NOW!

i suddenly realise!
tml is valentines day!

hm...when was the last time i reallyy got a date
for v.day?
i guess is 4 yrs ago?
hahaha

tml is also international friendship day....
what a load of crap.

i tink its just an excuse for pple who celebrates
others other than their dates....

i'm just gonna say i wont be celebrating it.

non-stop action everywhere.....

2008-02-08T07:39:00.000-08:00

yay!
happy cny everybody!!
let welcome the year of the rat!

after rats, its the bull, then tiger then rabbit!
!!!!omfg!means in a few yrs time i'll be 24!!!
oh no!!

oh wells but heck
i'm gonna enjoy turnin 21 1st

so its been decided...

bdae this yr wud be held at chalet!
1st mar is the bbq!!
all are invited!

its time to countdown.....

its time to haf fun....

its time to slack!

its time to get more mc

its time to prepare for the celebrations!

100308!

come to think of it....
its valentines time again!

oh man......
so depressed...
wheres my valentine?
haha

2008-02-01T10:30:00.000-08:00

after posting a long post up at the other blog,
here i am!

i've finally did most of my cny shopping today.
gonna go red, purple and pink this festive season!

haha damn gay.

recently i've been see some useful/meaningful quotes
but i alway forget what was it after a while.

i'm getting all hyped up at
the tot of running the AHM this yr...
hope all turns out well!

been wanting to go and sing songs recently.
it gonna happen soon!

as feb arrives...
its a bittersweet feeling...
feb arrives means march is just round the corner!
it also means that there are lotsa guys in a few days time
gonna shout ORD LOH in my face....
they keep saying
aiya your time will come.
but!
the feeling sucks you know.

cny is near...
i'm turning 21 soon...
my fears...
my happiness
all cramped up.

its 247 am now
i'm damn damn freaking tired...
so till nxt time peeps..

2008-01-27T02:04:00.000-08:00

i never knew my 1st wk back to camp
was like this.

lotsa time spent under the sun.....
doin work.........

i seriously nd time
more time!
to do my cny shopping.......

gotten myself a new fone...

2008-01-18T23:12:00.000-08:00

haiz
this week marks the end of my 1month long stayout
for rugby.
gotten tons of bruises along the way...

but imagining the life back in camp everyday!!
haiz...
nvm theres alway my campmates to share the day

duty tml....

sucks

i'm lost for words

2008-01-12T23:49:00.000-08:00

as the time clicks by
chinese new year is round the corner.
means that its time to do some shopping for clothes....

this year maybe i'll be going for shirts for a change.
oh wells, if i see one that fits my taste that is.

guys
stop asking/telling me that
the dragonfly is attached to my friend.
do you think that i do not know?
i am not jealous.
i'm not feeling anything.
time has healed wounds.
friends are more important.

eating frenzy with darren and shawn.
guys, no more! NO MORE!
haha
till at least the new year alrites?

what do you do when a thousand thoughts are running
through your head at a moments.

2008-01-06T08:22:00.000-08:00

1st post of 2008!

and i just rmbed this year's feb has one more day!!
oh my god!!
ultimate suayness......
which means i must wait one more day for ORD!
arghhhhhhh
someone release me frm the torture...

new year resolutions??
hm....
i shall not make them just yet...
shall come up with them as i go along,
or maybe not at all!

chinese new year is coming.
i need to do shopping again!
oh my god!
shopping-mates anyone?

haven been feeling well,
haven been eating well..
dropped a couple of kilos...
something is wrong with me!!

shall see if i'm better by nxt post....
cya all yo dudes and babes...

2007-12-27T23:08:00.000-08:00

its time for year-end review 2007!!!

hm... i wont go deep into this time's year-end review
cos i'm planning to do an overall review of the past 2 years
of my life after 10th march.

hm... lets start...

2007:

started on the record of our company getting a recon1 for our etep1.
in layman's term means we gt the best grades for our evaluation
exercise in the 1st yr.
so as a result, we begin our slacking year....
literally slacking cos there aint much to do!!

acct incident.
Advance Close Combat Training, ie fighting techniques with bare hands,
different from icct and bcct was that
there was hell losta slamming of your opponent.
so one fateful day, i got slammed and landed on the wrong side.
"POP" goes my left arm outta the socket...
dislocated.
so i was out of action physcially for months...

as we hit our 2nd army year started.
and so did the ippt and soc cycle.

at least i passed ippt.
but since ive rest for months cos of my shoulder,
i cant do soc for nuts.
cant even past the 1st yr timing of 9.59.

so soon NDP preps came soon after....

ndp burnt the majority of my sats away!!
spending afternoons and afternoons for rehersals...

but like many wud telll you.
when the moment came,
NDP 2007 started.
it was all worthwhile..

things come in waves,
unstoppable waves.
the M3 conversion course begins soon after ndp.

wont go into the course...

hm so....
after the course...
we prepared for our final evaluation exercise....

final etep was
SHAGGED OUT.

come dec.
wad a month.
aft etep,
rugby attachments.
xiang en's wedding.
birthdays and more birthdays....

oh yea speakin of which...
i saw a pretty girl in xiang ens wedding!!
whoohoo!

top few movies i loved this year.

1. 300!
so cool so nice so fantastic.
2. harry potter.
3. spiderman 3
4. pirates
5. 200 pound beauty.

wishlist 2008.
or things i wud wanna get.
a new phone.
new wallet.
a educational loan.
take part in the full ahm?
maybe try standard charter?
catch more movies.
keep in touch wif the gd camp friens.
keep in touch wif most of the frens.
to hell wif those who cant be bothered.

hm... i cant tink of anymore so tats all for now!!

bye 2007
2008!! numbers tat have been in my dreams for past 2 yrs!

2007-12-23T08:09:00.000-08:00

wad a way to celebrate my Xmas eve....
duty in camp....
thou i dont celebrate the event but still being in camp sucks.

i just came home from my camp mate's wedding dinner
will try to get hold of the pics
now doesnt tat lead us to a whole new phrase of our lifes??
how time flies.....

oh yeah arsenal to face AC milan
in the champions league...
what a matchup....
come on arsenal!
sweep the holders away!

nxt week i predict is yet another week of non-stop action...

will update soon...

merry xmas to all....

2007-12-15T22:03:00.000-08:00

oh yea cos i'm playin rugby for my unit.
i get to stay out.
not exactly know how to play rugby,
but i'm starting to get the hang of it.
speaking of stay out.....
yea its shiok but its very taxing on the pocket.
transport fees and meals aint very cheap u know.
the feeling of staying out is good.
but there are cons to it too.
everyday i'm sort of lost after the training sessions
theres noting to do after that.

alrites.
theres this good bud of mine....
from what i know hes been going to a pub very very frequently.
oh well its not me to go on and tell peeps not to go drinking
or go chiong.
but still i'm not in favor of him goin there so frequently
and he tells of the pple there buys him drinks
and he doesnt nd to pay alot....
well then my frien,
i do not believe that theres such things in the world such
as free lunch, let alone alcohol.
hes such a thickhead doubt he'll listen
hope all wells fine.

come to think of it...
its gonna be a year soon since i last club!
hashaha saves you tons of $$ u know.

when ord looms around.
cant help to feel extremely happy....
2more paydays to go!

oh yea speakin of ord,
when i do it'll be ard my bdae.
and seeing how i sabotage my friends who turned 21 this yr,
i tink i'm gonna suffer due to my bad karma...
so jan shld be a good time i start to train and get back my drinking "abilities"
ahahaha

oh yeah!
ive finally given up on tryin to keep in contact with some friends
who i tink i wud had been able to keep them.

no more of me being the one tryin....

2007-12-08T10:00:00.000-08:00

finally
its over
nightmare is over.....
tis weeek marks the end of my life in ns where i wont be needing to go outfield
for at least tilll i go for reservist......

yes finally its over.

went thru alot in tat 4day 4 nite.

now i'm gonna go on a spree to pamper myself!

2007-11-30T06:21:00.001-08:00

alrite peeps
and so arsenal finally lost...
cross fingers and pray they dont crumble and
go down the drain like they did 2seasons ago.

i've read like half of the naruto manga available online in the past one and a half days.
figure out how bored i was...

dim sum buffet again.

i still need some good food before this week ends...

i recieved 2 letters recently.
1st, my ord letter...
happiness

2nd, a letter telling me tat i'll soon be eligible for the organ transplant
i can choose to opt out of it.....
so shld i???

imagine our horror when we found out nxt week is gonnaa be hell....

lets shag it out one last time..........

2007-11-24T10:05:00.000-08:00

just one more to go
just one freaking more......

suntanning, swimming and
singing k is uberly enjoyable.
not mentioning the weekly soccer sessions
where all fun and laughter is
present.

nxt wk darren ords.
good for him!

whens my turn coming???

2007-11-18T00:42:00.000-08:00

sometimes when you think that
you have been through the worst times,
do not be decieve.
you'll soon find out that that is plainly naive thinking.
you have just only entered the gates of hell.

nxt wkend i'm gonna go for big big meals
and good good foods.
so if interested pls contact me.

i really am enjoying singlehood.

2007-11-11T02:30:00.000-08:00

let me bitch abt camp somemore....

i freaking hate my oc...
someone pls knock some sense into him..
better! some one get him outta bravo!

how i just wish time fast forwards itself...

4 more mnths...
FOUR FUCKIN MORE MONTHS!!!!

alrites...on a brighter side...
nxt yrs bdae celebration shld be a bang.
but have no clear idea wad shld i do...

but guarantee my frens wont let me be sober at the end of the nite

5 bday celebrations in the past 4 weekends....
omg i needa go on a diet....

just rmb i'll be on off+leave frm 3rd wk of dec onwards..
tat means i needa find peeps to hang ard with.
and also bling blings to finance myself!

2007-11-05T00:54:00.000-08:00

past wk
1st batch of peeps in my year ord-ed....

although cant congratulate them enough
but if u come and smirk to me...
i'll beat ur teeth out!!
=P

just came back from tanning and swimming at yck swim complex.
cant really swim,
and not alot of sun.
oh well its better than slacking at home...

come to tink of it...
the last time i went 2 swim was erms....
sec 1
so its 7 yrs ago!!

oh yea lost one of my studs...
shit..

my sis gt me an absolut 100!!
rocks the bottle looks so cool!!

2007-10-26T06:32:00.000-07:00

2 down
2 more to go.........

monday's outfield was alrite until night came....
just when i tot surviving 7 days outfield in tekong was the
hellish.....
tat night reminded me that hell has many levels...
and i was so closed to the last one....

tml gonna go pasir ris for another bdae celebration...

how am i gonna spend my 21st??

i'm still deciding...

2007-10-20T11:23:00.001-07:00

alrite.
in less than 48 hours
i'm gonna go on another outfield.
tell me why am i feelin so depressed now?

went for or-yee-or ans bosco's
bbq bdae party.
imagine bunch of 20 over army guys
who spent over 2 hrs to get the fire started...
i'm not proud.

i cant wait for dec
oh wait den again.
i cant wait for march!
so much to celebrate in march....

so much to tink abt after march....

theres some lump growin on the back of my neck.
gonna be so darn bz
i'll have to see a doc in late dec...

2007-10-13T08:40:00.000-07:00

well well...
1 out field down,
at least 3 more to go...

someone pls fast forward time....

so busy,
so sian....

i just cant wait for all this to be over.....

i need a new life,
direction,
new label.

period.

2007-10-06T10:12:00.000-07:00

i superbly bored...

so bored tat i'm rewatching my MVP valentine online..

yeah i'm so bored.

shit its all starts nxt week...
out field every month till end of the yr...

i hate it!

i gt myself a new specs.
haha looks funny..

tml arsenal vs sunderland
hope they win big big!

soccer 2nite was fantastic.

omg i missed all my friends with the listening ear

2007-09-26T04:49:00.000-07:00

well
i'm gonna say the unhappy tings 1st...

i'm getting tired of trying and harbouring hope
of maintaining good friendships with all those that
walked in...
friendships takes more than one party to maintain
just like any relationships.

so to all those i tried in vain....
no more.
i shant carry on...
all of them carried on with their lifes happily
while i'm still living in my memories....

nope
no more.

off tml
friday out camp run at bishan...

wad a relatively relaxed week!

i cnat wait to play soccer again with the guys
cos i skipped the past 2 wks' sessions

currently on a course...
after the course
one more exercise to ord...
cant wait

someone pls turn the clock faster...

2007-09-15T07:39:00.000-07:00

lets see....
i rotted at home for the whole day
cos i'm on standby waiting to be mobilised...
argh...........hates it...

we din play soccer tis weekend...
such a bore...

anyway
wad an incredible game
arsenal vs totteham
thankfully we won...

i'm damn bored to the core...

2007-09-08T09:32:00.000-07:00

does time really zoom past all of us while we dillydally
ourselves away?

if it does...
then someone please make the comin 5 months go in a blink!!

anyway allow me to indulge in a few minutes of
whinning...

wad a lousy week,

1st i gt to know psp got banned again in camp....
so there goes my money spent on it....

then, sprained my ankle while playin bball
so i limped ard the camp for the whole week.
got rashes while doing duty.
realised that i really hate a bastard...
then got a bad case of rashes on my book out day!
and now, woke up with a swollen eye...

alrite...
weekend with no epl!
so boring...

nxt week got recall manning...
mean haf to go back to camp immediately if they call us to
tat sucks...

anyway
i'm running out of money
payday better come soon....

2007-09-02T00:28:00.000-07:00

september is here.....

few more days to 5 more months to ord!
finally can count with one hand!!

army open house was alrite....
come to think of it....
i dont really care...

liverpool hammered 6 to derby..
better not let them win the league

i just realised its so hard to find a person who wud watch
horror movies with me....

tells lotsa stuff hur?

in need for sports....

recently i can string my tots into words...
someting is wrong...
hm....

2007-08-26T06:54:00.000-07:00

howdy i'm back...
super shagged

army half marathon
caused me to run 12km with a sprain ankle...
now i cant walk properly...
=(

gonna be on course for a month starting frm 24 sep
sucks....
out field again! omfg..

hates it..

arsenal is finding ways to win somehow..
i'm not complaining abt it!
=D

i nd someone to watch a horror movie
dead silence with me!

will be back soon i guess...
taz

2007-08-15T01:41:00.000-07:00

oh well had a long break.
played tons of soccer,
watch arsenal played.
had sushi hightea buffet,
bought myself a new backpack,
and i watched finish one litre of tears.

if you haf no idea wads tat
maybe u can go google abt it.
and watch the serial.
i guarantee tears man....
guarantee!
now my head is spinning with thousand emotions
wha a show man...
and the lead actress is
so darn beautiful!!
i even went to wiki abt her.
erika sawajiri
beautiful!

gonna be
back to camp for 2days...

wooo!
imagine felicia chin plus erika!!!

drools...
haha

2007-08-11T08:19:00.000-07:00

and so....
the new epl season starts!!
YAY!

the past 2 days was spent doing......
soccer,mahjong,soccer!
what more can i ask man........

ok man.....give me some space to emo abit hur?

if anyone rmbed...
i wrote few posts ago that
i saw someones friendster page...
well i did mention i had
this new theory,
somehow or another
the theory seems to be true...
or i tink it is...

oh wells,
2yrs ago i din make the move,
so cant complain...

-----------------------------------------------------

well over the years
i seem to be making a same old stupid mistake
i knew it was a stupid mistake but i still do it.

i really do put lotsa trust in peeps easily,
think that pple wud be my gd frien,
in fact take them as my gd friens
and soon ill come to realise
i'm just makin a fool outta myself.

just two year in college,
in the same freaking college!
but just cos of diff in the cca,
my best bud in sec school in gone......

now i wont make the same mistake again...
no more
no more...

i shall keep myself to me

yea

i tink i'll do just tat...

come to think of it,
no one realli read tis blog anyway...

2007-08-09T18:40:00.000-07:00

for those reading...
pls allow for my vulgarities!

FINALLY!!!
ndp is finally fucking over!!
no more fucking burnt weekends!!
no more fucking stay in cos my asshole knnbccb OC doesnt even trust his own men!
wad a useless bastard!

YAY!!
happyness!

guang is truely happy today...

2007-08-06T07:41:00.000-07:00

yesh! few more days to possibicity!!
then to the end of my troubles!!

recently was friendster surfing..
then bump onto tis person's page..
so long, so long
so darn long
i hadnt seen her for ages.......
seeing the photos was enuf for me!

haha

oh well lets just hope something dont turn out to be truth
for some new theory i've been working on...

and here we go again..
the soccer season starts nxt wkend..
let hope arsene worked his magic and some wonderkid appear out of nowhere
to save the day.....
come on at least dont be worst than totteham.....
pls?

2007-08-05T03:36:00.000-07:00

a lil accident happened durin the preps for
ndp...
and now i cant open my mouth too wide
cos in doin so will cos lotsa pain to my head...

few more days to ndp!
few more..

2007-08-03T10:37:00.000-07:00

nownow
tml is combined rehersal!

come on!!
let finish the ndp!!

finally dim sum-ed my way thru
the afternoon...
so i ate breakfast,lunch and dinner
all in one meal!
lol

cos its buffet style...
its not bad!

oh yea....will remove my old entries soon
kinda seems like the ting dont keep my blog entry histories...

2007-08-02T09:01:00.000-07:00

wad a week
got a bump on my temple
and broke my specs....

and

ndp is coming!!

someone pls tell me where got gd and cheap dim sum place!

2007-07-30T06:10:00.000-07:00

i am counting down to the days
i say hello to my saturdays again!

been rotting my body off at home for the past sunday and today...
since ndp ripped me of my friends...
and my soccer....
but i've come to realised i've saved tons of money u noe?

i tink i'll go on a shopping spree
after ndp ends....

watched high school musical ytd on channel 5.

yea i noe it is a relatively old show
but since theres noting to watch on
sundays...why not?
while watching it....
cant help getting the feeling that
school life rocks...
missed it lots...

let me ord soon!
pls!

2007-07-28T09:11:00.000-07:00

simply love the fireworks at ndp man...

oh yea did i mention i finished the deathly hallows alr??
100% sastifaction!
=D

it feels so weird to see on the sports news
henry winning matches for teams outside arsenal and france...

2007-07-27T08:22:00.000-07:00

a few more days to ndp
a week more to hellos to my weekends again...

gotta catch them all!!
all my friends...

imagine my horror when i
realise tat my sis is gonna take over my room!
u'll see.....
seince i'm in the army
l let her use my room for her to do her studies
cos she usually go late into the nite
and sometimes morning...

so logically my table's full of her stuff....
not tat i mind....

then
my another sis told me
tat she's been sleeping on my bed
more than on hers?!?!?

just tis week...
a furry ducky soft toy
and a heart shape cushion mysteriously appeared on my bedside...

imagine my horror!

ndp preview tml....

2007-07-22T11:22:00.000-07:00

oh yeah rocks...
got my hands on the last book of HARRY POTTER!!
muahahahahahaha

am getting sick soon...
eating too much durians...
but i'm not complaining..
king of fruits
who can complain?

2007-07-21T10:17:00.000-07:00

alrite tonites ndp
was knnbccb f*up
shit, argh........
sagvn!@#$@49#432

u get the idea...

anyway suddenly
i'm starting to miss my friends...

2007-07-20T04:06:00.000-07:00

simply cant wait to get my hands on
the final installment of the harry potter series.

call be a bookworm, dont care....
something's wrong with my hands cant type properly...
wtf...bbq!!

anyway just saw something online...
somehow my heart skipped a beat...
hm........
hm.....

anyways....shall ponder on it myself...

oh yea
sherms once remarked that
that my post are word limited...

well maybe cos
i may crap tons at times....
there are things
i wont wanna put in the webby for the whole world to listen to my crappy.
things in my mind wud cause lots of peeps lotsa probs...
so yeah
less words= less troubles...

and besides....
ndp rob me of my weekends...
my friends count is currently into single digit
not includin the guys in camp....
so yea
words limited...

oh and this week's training is superbly xiong...
i have felt such shaggness
ever since bmt days?
maybe...

tml is another day of rehersal...
more fireworks!
happy...

oh yeah..
i shall tell a lil secret here...

i'm wondering......
why is it so difficult to find a girl
with pretty nice legs??

hm.....

2007-07-18T05:43:00.000-07:00

shall put a short post.

today 180707
i had never felt so wartorn from the trainings in camp
ever since last year june/july.
battle wounds all over the body.
wow.tat sucks.

yeaps short post.

finally new skin!

2007-07-16T00:30:00.000-07:00

yay finally found time to change the blogskin.

anyway
i cant wait for ndp to finish.
so i can find back all my friends.....

hm...
checking out now...
cya...

p.s. see joyce? finally changed!
muhahahahaa

2007-07-15T01:55:00.000-07:00

grrr.......
hates tis wk in camp......

anyway suddenly i'm lost
kinda like cant find any friends

needa someone 2 watch movies..

lol

stayin at home never felt so lovely before.

2007-07-13T03:12:00.001-07:00

am tryin very hard 2 find time for new blog skin

anyways
i really nd a movie partner for transformers

sian.....

so much stupid conflicts in camp

argh....

2007-07-10T05:38:00.000-07:00

a real short post be4 i book back into camp....

movies i wanna watch!

1)transformers
2) dead silence [only at lido]
3) harry potter and the order of the phoenix

friends
pls ask me along....

sherms transformers!

chill outt